What Dreams May Come
I wonder from time to time, just how life may have worked out with different situations. Hindsight is always 20./20 but, what about wonders? Take for example the fantastic stories from J.R.R Tolkien and his middle earth, if Bilbo decided not to go with the dwarfs on their journey to reclaim the lost dwarf world…would have the dwarfs succeeded in their quest or if Samwise was not such a faithful companion in Lord Of The Rings, would Frodo have made it to the top of Mount Doom.
So I sit back now at the age of 63 and reflect on some situations that were presented to me and wonder what might have been…so if you will bear with me, come along and lets see!
At the tender age of 17 I had an offer to work a summer for a gentleman in our neighborhood that sold small company shares for some computer company called Apple, he offered me 1000 shares of this company for a summers work. The shares at that time were no higher than $20 a share but I would see no money for the whole summer just some paper that said I owned these 1000 shares. I was in need of a job that paid actual money so I declined the job. Besides computers are just for the rich and I would never be able to afford one anyway. So, wonder of wonders on that one!
Age 25, addicted to cocaine and selling high quality stuff with 2 friends, sold a gram to another friend who then took it home and poked it and ended up freezing his heart and dying not even 4 hours after i handed the gram to him. To make matters worse, 1 of the friends selling it with me borrowed over $5000 from another friend of mine (who I tried to dissuade from lending money to any drug dealer), got ripped off big time and now wants to put bullet in my heart. Wonder if my friend had listened to me and believed in my words enough, how would have our friendship worked out?
Age 40, fell in love with a social butterfly with 3 kids and ignored all my friends advise and married her anyway…wonder what might have been had I listened to my friends?
Age 52 , living with my very sick mother. Wonder if I would have stayed in my lovely mountain retreat and ignored my families plea to come to the big city, where or what would my life have looked like right now?
Age 5, being forced to perform oral sex on my father, wonder if I continued to perform instead of saying no and refusing regardless of my punishment, would he have moved onto my 3 sisters or would he have been satisfied with what I was doing?
Age 15, first real hockey team party that I had been invited to, was never the cool kid so this was extra special, got terribly drunk and decided to play hopscotch with my face and had to be brought home to face my mother and her wrath. Wonder if I had declined that invitation would the cops have been called? Would my coach still be facing charges of giving alcohol to minors? Would I have still been the outcast of the neighborhood? Would I still have gotten the beating from my peers?
So, reader as you can see, wonders are not nearly as neat and clean as hindsight. Wonders have many different levels of reality and fantasy! Makes me wonder what tomorrow may bring…